New lifstyle, day 1

Ok, so today I will start plan Z, this is my final attempt on changing my life style for good. First I am going to track my Calories on a great web site "sparkpeople.com" Exercise more, choose smaller portions and eat more fruits and veggies. I am confident this will be what I need and will work. I have not weighed myself today, and will wait till Friday. I am no longer going to put a number on my weight, but rather be happy with what ever I am. I am lucky, I have great support, I am not sick, just want to feel my best, which will make me look my best!! Renee

HCG day 7

OK, so I promised myself I would be honest. My weight was the same this morning, but last night I ate, I could not take it! And today i tried really, really hard, but I just don't think this diet is for me. I am going to do weight watchers again, I have actually learned a few things about myself. First, I dont like so many rules and restrictions on a diet. 2nd, I am in denial a bout a few things about "Renee" I went to the Dr. today and had a physical. I am 5'10" and my weight is well within the guidelines of where I should be. My cholesterol was 130, perfect. My Blood pressure was 102/70, perfect! I am physically in perfect shape, so why do i struggle with the thought of being skinnier? My husband never says anything bad to me, my friends or family never say anything, so why?? I know I cant eat Del Taco all day every day, I get that, I know I need to be more active and drink more water, ok. After the last week of suffering, all that seems so freakin EASY! I am going to stop trying to get to some number on the scale that will magically make me happy. What if that doesnt make me happy? What makes me happy is living a good life, and thats what I am going to do. I realized i like apples, and grapefruit, veggies and lean meat, they are good! I like drinking water with a little lemon and organic tea. I like hiking, walking, riding my bike, playing Wii. This diet is great for somebody who has 20plus lbs to lose, you will see results, shrink your tummy and learn to eat. But for me, someone who needs to work out more, and make better choices, no. I am not skinny, and my body image is very poor, but looking back at what I have done, I know what I need to do. I need to mentally let go of the stupid comments I have heard over my lifetime and start with the Renee that is sitting here now.

Update

Down another pound, have cold meds on board, hoping for a great day.

HCG day 6

Well, take me out back and shoot me like an old dying dog, because that is what I feel like. I feel so horrible, the thought of getting through this day seems impossible. I need to take meds for cold that require food to be on my stomach so I am eating an apple with my coffee breakfast. I am to weak to do what I need to do today, so what do I do?? I am assuming if this cold didnt come on, and I was well I could do it. I said I would do this and suceed because I have made all the mistakes, but for ME, I can not really survive off of 500 cal a day. They say you can only do low impact workout for 20 minutes. At my job I am on my feet all day, going up and down stairs, not to mention a mother to 2 kids, both very active. My low impact workout is ALL day. I will continue today, see if it gets any better, my friend is loosing weight and the hunger is diminishing. She is doing great on this actually, I am really proud of her, but her story is her story, mine is mine. Ok, dragging myself to the shower, wish me luck!Renee

HCG day 5

Well, I lost about a lbs again. But the way i feel it should have been more. Through the night I could feel a cold or something coming on. I worried because I feel so weak, how can a fight a bug? The day went ok because I was so busy, then around noon I ate lunch. It was bland and unsatisfying to say the least. I am dizzy, fog headed, and it feels like my peripheral vision is gone. I am not thinking straight and forgetful. I feel weak and sick and i hate it. So far the thought of eating something like baja fresh or pizza is overwhelming my every thought. I drink tea to curve my appetite and it doesn't even work, I drink water to fill me up and it makes me nauseous. I am sitting here, looking at the computer and its not really even registering what I am writing. I am not sure I can do this, I am suffering for a few LBS and I can't take it. I miss good food, beer, bread, candy. This diet has you convinced if you put lotion on it will fail, and baby oil makes my face and body and hair greasy, yuck, yuck yck!!!!!

HCG day 4

So I maybe lost a Lb on my first day. I weighed my self when i got up and I was the same, an hour later I was down a LB, so I don't know. At work today they brought bagels that I resisted even though by 9am I WAS FREAKIN STARVING!!!! I text my friend who is also on the diet and she said to eat an apple, well, I did not bring an apple. So one of the guys I work with had one and I asked if I could have it, I ate it like a homeless person who found it in the garbage!! I had lunch, and guess what, it was somebodies birthday and they brought Red Velvet Bunt cake!!! Yes, I admit, I had a tiny peice.
This is almost unbearable to me, I am hungry and that makes me MISERABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to eat and I want to eat BAD!!!!! So I had dinner, some stew meat in veggie broth and grapefruit, not sure if its approved, but I am to tired to worry about it right now. I am hoping tomorrow is better, they say your stomach shrinks, I hope it happens fast.Renee

HCD day 3, midday

OK, so I have drank more water today than i normally do, and some tea. I had an early lunch. Shrimp, asparagus, and strawberries, all cooked as instructed. It was a good amount, and although I am not stuffed, I am full. I am having another cup of tea as we speak, but I do have the cravings. I was fixing the kids lunch and really wanted to snack on it, but I didn't. I know this has been labeled as a starvation diet, but actually its good proportions of proteins, fruits and veggies. You just eliminate carbs, fats, and snacks. You can have sugar free jello, so I think I will get some of that. So, just feeling a little bad about the snacking thing, and realized I must consume a lot of calories nibbling and finishing there food. OK, I feel better now, time to get some more things done and keep drinking water/

HCG Day 3

Ok, so this begins the actual diet part. I weighed myself and I gained 2 lbs in the last 2 days, but was up 2 already from my 8 lbs loss. I took the drops and had my breakfast...black coffee. I got some tea that should help with the hunger. I am supposed to drink tons of water, no exercise. I am hoping to keep busy and not worry about the food, but I know this will be hard. When I get on the scale tomorrow after a successful day today I will be happy.Renee

HCG Day 2

Ok, so yesterday I took the drops as instructed. Had Sausage and eggs for breakfast, coffee, few Cheetos, Chicken nuggets, FF, coke for lunch, few chips, ice cream, steak, potatoes, salad for dinner, and a beer. Not sure if it was enough, but it was fun. Today i am going to have some coffee and probably eggs, sausage and pancakes for breakfast. We are going to a BBQ, so I plan to fill up there today. Went to grocery store and got all the food to eat while I am dieting. I am actually really nervous because this does not have an appetite suppressant, and I am going from eating like crazy to eating nothing. So, I will enjoy my day.....cause it all ends tomorrow! Renee

HCG Day 1

OK, so I didn't sleep well last night and I have been up since 5am. Its 6:41 and and I am showered and ready to start!
Rules:
No gums, no mints, no lotion and moisturizer, this is for day one, other things are a no no along with these for day 3-15.
I can use mineral oil for skin. There are fats in cosmetics that are absorbed.

The first 2 days you eat fat like crazy, this is to jump start your metabolism. I have weighed myself and I am 16 lbs from my goal.

I am going to take my drops in the AM, before lunch and before dinner.

This is going to be the fun part....eat anything and everything!!
Wish me luck!

The HCG diet

So, I am going to start the HCG diet tomorrow. Its a controversial diet, its extreme, but if done correctly supposed to work. My plan is this, follow exactly, blog to look back at mistakes, and then when the phases are done return to WW to maintain. I am doing a 15 day cycle, I am hoping for a 10-15lbs loss. The first 2 days you eat like crazy, then you start a 500 calorie a day diet, with a list of foods you can eat, and how to eat them. No fats, oils, butter etc.
So tomorrow i will start, lets see how this goes! Renee 10-15lbs to go!!!