tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34678742227452715112024-03-12T16:56:03.176-07:00starvingmommiesReneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.comBlogger35125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-83697916253184331142013-10-03T05:42:00.002-07:002013-10-03T05:42:31.463-07:00I no longer say diet in the sense that you are following a restricted diet someone else has come up for you. Your diet is simply that, YOUR diet. Each day you tweak, learn, and you might mess up. You need to learn and move on. Planning on being fit and healthy can't be just a thing you do on top of our incredibly busy lives, it has to be part of your life, just like taking care of your kids and home, you job. I am at nearly 4 weeks, and this is the first time I question any true changes. I fight those demons off constantly. This is not an instant result life style, but a process. I imagine 4, 5 month down the road, and I see a woman who is just starting to look the way she wants. My expectations of my weight are fading, there is no perfect number for me, perfection is in the eye of the beholder. Each day I improve, tweak and add I try to embrace. This week I added 20 minutes of cardio on my off days. I did legs yesterday, and I am exhausted, sore and it was the last thing I wanted to do at 5am, but I was excited see that 20 minute mark pop up!!<div>
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Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-85823100490161353962013-10-01T05:22:00.000-07:002013-10-01T05:22:04.565-07:00I'm backWow, its been a couple of years since I was on this blog. And I am still struggling! Actually, a ton has changed. My husband deployed this year. And what did I say?? That I was going to lose weight and get in shape. 5 months into the deployment I was up 10 lbs. I joined the gym before he left, and I would go, but my diet was shit and I NEVER pushed myself. So, I did what I never thought I would do, I hired a trainer. Now, not everyone can do this, and why I can is a long story, but I can, and so I did. I could not have been paired with a better trainer. She is about a foot shorter, pure muscle, and she not only works me out, but she does something I never expected, she talks to me, about all my excuses, insecurities, past failures. She even talks to me about my husband, my ex husband and my kids. She is encouraging and understanding, all rolled into a tiny muscle lady. Anyway, I started exactly 3 weeks ago today, on September 9th was my first day. I go to see her 3 days a week. I will be quick about the last 3 weeks. She told me how to eat, but didn't put me on a diet. I am not perfect, but I have given up a TON. I was eating bagels at work everyday, with cheese melted on the top. I was drinking bad coffee. I would have a beer at night. These were the first things I gave up. So first things first, stop thinking its a diet. I have done pretty good, I have had a few failures in the last 3 weeks. Another thing, STAY OFF THE SCALE!!! So, I have cheated once on that. <br />
And guess what, it made me feel like SHIT!! I am trying to change my life, and guess what there is no easy way out to do it, I know, I have tried it ALL. So I am going to write my SUCCESS story now, so here are my stats when I started 3 weeks ago. I don't have my measurements, I will add those when she weighs me again.<br />
So, I am 40 years old<br />
I am 5'10"<br />
I weighted 173 lbs<br />
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Things I am changing, I am adding cardio at least 4 days a week. And guess what, you don't need 60 minutes of cardio, but a very hard 20-25 minutes. <br />
I am packing my food the night before!<br />
And I am continuing the fight the demon of food and drink.Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-82676957109673619092011-11-26T07:11:00.000-08:002011-11-26T07:23:31.649-08:00Whats it going to take?So the last few weeks I have done nothing right. Nothing fits, my body is puffy and fat, I don't even recognize my face. I don't want my husband to see me naked, and I feel gross all the time. I am searching for motivation and can't seem to find it. I eat when I am not hungry, I don't make the right decisions, I hear my excuse drowning my moms ears and I wonder, whats wrong with me? I got up this morning physically feeling sick, because I made no good choices in the last week of food and no exercise. What I did was hear me tell my mom how bad I feel about a house I am losing in Houston, a possible bankruptcy only that will affect me, a horrible job situations, and I am fat. So, what can I do? Really, at this point the only thing I can do is take care of me! Which would make me stronger to take on all the other issues of life, play with my kids, make crazy love to my husband, and feel success in myself which will in turn help me face life's little challenges in a healthy happy way. I need to stop thinking a few pounds lost will make it all better and realize the pounds will come off when I do better for myself. So that's where I am at today. My goal is to make RENEE feel better, by putting positive into me and in turn expelling positive energy into the world. So here's to feeling better!!Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-27416389006788770292011-08-30T05:30:00.000-07:002011-08-30T05:48:35.755-07:00Can't deny the mirror!So I get to my ZUMBA class. Was actually a little scared because I have never actually done an hour. I am looking around and the other women, all but one were my age, even older. The young one of course was in front of me with her perfect little ass. I am super excited and then the instructor walks in, she is well in her 50's, a bit chunky and I was like WHAT?? We line up and that's when I see myself in the mirror! Is that me? No, yes, yuck!! I wore stretchy Capri's. t-shirt and my tennis shoes. I was disgusted! I could see the roles under my t-shirt, my body has a weird way of having a chunk of fat on one hip and not the other, and my choice of pants did not help that. My other complaint on my body is that my leg are the same size from my calves to my feet, and the way my socks cut off my circulation I looked like I had fluid build up in my ankles. Yuck! My first thought was, Jon must really love me, or he is just hoping I stick to my plan, HE SAW ME LIKE THIS!! Do I run? No, I did the next best thing and moved to the back of the class, behind the hot girl, so I can't really see myself. The class was super fun. The instructor had more rhythm and stamina than most half her age. She was confident with her far from perfect body and bat wings. But as I ZUMBA'ed the night I made some plans for me. <div>I came home to my wonderful family. I stopped by walmart and got a Roasted chicken and salad. I talked to my mom, who has lost a ton of weight over the last year or so and keeps losing and looking great and she said it just clicked for her. I don't want it to click in my 60's but now. So I confessed my disgust and plan of action with my husband. He looked at me like nothing is wrong. But I can't imagine he is not cheering this on in his head. I told him I wanted to deserve a boob job before I turned 40 and he was great with that.</div><div>So, to end this, I didn't have any alcohol, eating not perfect, but better, and new plan for today. Bringing my running stuff to work, going to run a mile at lunch, see how this goes. I have about 3 weeks and a couple of days till my 5K and I am NOT ready!</div><div>So here is to all the excuses, the regrets, the guilt...I am leaving you slowly but surely and taking over my life!</div><div>Here is to a great day!</div><div>Renee</div>Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-69487234811834255842011-08-29T09:30:00.000-07:002011-08-29T09:40:39.682-07:00Really??So its Monday, I am signed up for a Zumba class this evening, and I am trying not to feel like I am on a diet. I had my coffee, some yogurt, then I noticed what I do. With out even thinking about it, I took a bite of my sons sandwich. I realized I do this ALL the time. Bite of this, bite of that, finish this, finish that, and boom! I am not even calculating this into my diet, even though I know its bad!! So I am giving up 2 things this week, alcohol and snagging food from my kids. My other goals are to work out at least 5 days a week, and keep busy the Th and Th. I will only weight in on Mondays.<div>So, todays weight is:(OUCH) 173!!! What, really?!?!?!?! I am not sure how that happened. OK, 23 lbs to my goal.</div><div>When I make my goal weight, and keep it off for 1 year I am getting a boob job months before I turn 40.</div><div>I took a picture with a friend this weekend and I looked HUGE!! I am trying to have some self esteem, but then I see something like that, gross.</div><div>Ok, here we go, day one, week one!</div><div>Renee</div>Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-66342808573131692872011-08-27T09:02:00.000-07:002011-08-27T09:17:45.938-07:00What is wrong with me???!!!???I did nothing right yesterday! After recognizing the problem, swearing to change...I don't!! I went to work and had a latte, not skinny. Then I got a gourmet hot dog with chips and salsa. For dinner I ate left over soup, a beer, candy and popcorn. I did not do one thing right, oh, except try to run and almost died! What am i waiting for? Monday? Why Monday? I am sluggish, tired, moody, bitchy, yet I am doing nothing to make me feel better. Today I ate 1 pancake with a tiny bet of butter and syrup, spoonful of eggs, 2 pieces of turkey bacon and some fruit. Oh and 2 cups of coffee. I am exhausted and unmotivated. <div>Not sure about where to pull my motivation from</div>Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-54687591911482304602011-08-26T07:27:00.000-07:002011-08-26T07:37:04.881-07:00I am back!!Ok, so I am starting this up again. Please feel free to blog with me, to support this never ending cause to lose a few pounds. I got on the scale today and I am almost at an all time high. Do I eat perfect, no. Do I exercise everyday, no. Do I feel guilt because of that, YES!! I want this to be raw, I want to tell all, that way I have no secretes. I sneak candy bars from my co-workers desk, I buy a cheese bagel every morning I work (at least 3 days a week) I consume bread, cheese, whatever and some how I justify this. And all along, I keep gaining weight.<div>Here are the stats:</div><div>I am 171lbs, 5'10", I am 38 years old.</div><div>I want to be 150</div><div>I need to lose 21 lbs. </div><div>I want to work out 4-5 times a week (I mean REALLY work out)</div><div>I will give myself 6 months to achieve this goal, that is less than a pound a week!</div><div>I am a career dieter, but no expert. I like Weight watchers because I do not feel to deprived. So here we go, again!</div><div>Yesterday I was walking behind a woman, in blingy short, very short jean shorts, a tank top, super tan, super in shape, and I felt like a blob, covered up in my safety scrubs. I have NEVER in my adult life worn a tank top, I wear shorts and a t-shirt on the rare occasion I wear a swim suit, and I always wear 3/4 inch sleeve shirts. I just want to feel good, and I know now, its going to take a ton of work. Holidays will come and go, date nights, birthday party's, but I have to stay focused.</div><div>So lets help each other! </div>Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-50295564077673110552010-03-13T07:23:00.000-08:002010-03-13T07:28:49.565-08:00New lifstyle, day 1Ok, so today I will start plan Z, this is my final attempt on changing my life style for good. First I am going to track my Calories on a great web site "sparkpeople.com" Exercise more, choose smaller portions and eat more fruits and veggies. I am confident this will be what I need and will work. I have not weighed myself today, and will wait till Friday. I am no longer going to put a number on my weight, but rather be happy with what ever I am. I am lucky, I have great support, I am not sick, just want to feel my best, which will make me look my best!! ReneeReneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-36882779795939231032010-03-12T14:51:00.000-08:002010-03-12T15:04:05.680-08:00HCG day 7OK, so I promised myself I would be honest. My weight was the same this morning, but last night I ate, I could not take it! And today i tried really, really hard, but I just don't think this diet is for me. I am going to do weight watchers again, I have actually learned a few things about myself. First, I dont like so many rules and restrictions on a diet. 2nd, I am in denial a bout a few things about "Renee" I went to the Dr. today and had a physical. I am 5'10" and my weight is well within the guidelines of where I should be. My cholesterol was 130, perfect. My Blood pressure was 102/70, perfect! I am physically in perfect shape, so why do i struggle with the thought of being skinnier? My husband never says anything bad to me, my friends or family never say anything, so why?? I know I cant eat Del Taco all day every day, I get that, I know I need to be more active and drink more water, ok. After the last week of suffering, all that seems so freakin EASY! I am going to stop trying to get to some number on the scale that will magically make me happy. What if that doesnt make me happy? What makes me happy is living a good life, and thats what I am going to do. I realized i like apples, and grapefruit, veggies and lean meat, they are good! I like drinking water with a little lemon and organic tea. I like hiking, walking, riding my bike, playing Wii. This diet is great for somebody who has 20plus lbs to lose, you will see results, shrink your tummy and learn to eat. But for me, someone who needs to work out more, and make better choices, no. I am not skinny, and my body image is very poor, but looking back at what I have done, I know what I need to do. I need to mentally let go of the stupid comments I have heard over my lifetime and start with the Renee that is sitting here now.Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-39652997170078127152010-03-11T06:01:00.001-08:002010-03-11T06:01:35.524-08:00UpdateDown another pound, have cold meds on board, hoping for a great day.Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-41459152764971014592010-03-11T05:27:00.000-08:002010-03-11T05:36:59.585-08:00HCG day 6Well, take me out back and shoot me like an old dying dog, because that is what I feel like. I feel so horrible, the thought of getting through this day seems impossible. I need to take meds for cold that require food to be on my stomach so I am eating an apple with my coffee breakfast. I am to weak to do what I need to do today, so what do I do?? I am assuming if this cold didnt come on, and I was well I could do it. I said I would do this and suceed because I have made all the mistakes, but for ME, I can not really survive off of 500 cal a day. They say you can only do low impact workout for 20 minutes. At my job I am on my feet all day, going up and down stairs, not to mention a mother to 2 kids, both very active. My low impact workout is ALL day. I will continue today, see if it gets any better, my friend is loosing weight and the hunger is diminishing. She is doing great on this actually, I am really proud of her, but her story is her story, mine is mine. Ok, dragging myself to the shower, wish me luck!ReneeReneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-70005671339542387032010-03-10T17:28:00.000-08:002010-03-10T17:42:27.984-08:00HCG day 5Well, I lost about a lbs again. But the way i feel it should have been more. Through the night I could feel a cold or something coming on. I worried because I feel so weak, how can a fight a bug? The day went <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">ok</span> because I was so busy, then around noon I ate lunch. It was bland and unsatisfying to say the least. I am dizzy, fog headed, and it feels like my peripheral vision is gone. I am not thinking straight and forgetful. I feel weak and sick and i hate it. So far the thought of eating something like <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">baja</span> fresh or pizza is overwhelming my every thought. I drink tea to curve my appetite and it <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">doesn't</span> even work, I drink water to fill me up and it makes me <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">nauseous</span>. I am sitting here, looking at the computer and its not really even registering what I am writing. I am not sure I can do this, I am suffering for a few LBS and I can't take it. I miss good food, beer, bread, candy. This diet has you convinced if you put lotion on it will fail, and baby oil makes my face and body and hair greasy, yuck, yuck yck!!!!!Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-42581026421220579472010-03-09T17:07:00.000-08:002010-03-09T17:15:37.836-08:00HCG day 4So I maybe lost a Lb on my first day. I weighed my self when i got up and I was the same, an hour later I was down a LB, so I don't know. At work today they brought bagels that I resisted even though by 9am I WAS FREAKIN STARVING!!!! I text my friend who is also on the diet and she said to eat an apple, well, I did not bring an apple. So one of the guys I work with had one and I asked if I could have it, I ate it like a homeless person who found it in the garbage!! I had lunch, and guess what, it was somebodies birthday and they brought Red Velvet Bunt cake!!! Yes, I admit, I had a tiny peice. <br />This is almost unbearable to me, I am hungry and that makes me MISERABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to eat and I want to eat BAD!!!!! So I had dinner, some stew meat in veggie broth and grapefruit, not sure if its approved, but I am to tired to worry about it right now. I am hoping tomorrow is better, they say your stomach shrinks, I hope it happens fast.ReneeReneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-2700996441838948302010-03-08T11:38:00.000-08:002010-03-08T11:45:44.515-08:00HCD day 3, midday<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">OK</span>, so I have drank more water today than i normally do, and some tea. I had an early lunch. Shrimp, asparagus, and strawberries, all cooked as instructed. It was a good amount, and although I am not stuffed, I am full. I am having another cup of tea as we speak, but I do have the cravings. I was fixing the kids lunch and really wanted to snack on it, but I didn't. I know this has been labeled as a starvation diet, but actually its good proportions of <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">proteins</span>, fruits and veggies. You just <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">eliminate</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">carbs</span>, fats, and snacks. You can have sugar free jello, so I think I will get some of that. So, just feeling a little bad about the snacking thing, and realized I must consume a lot of calories nibbling and finishing there food. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">OK</span>, I feel better now, time to get some more things <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">done</span> and keep drinking water/Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-25141509458893981222010-03-08T08:42:00.000-08:002010-03-08T08:50:51.560-08:00HCG Day 3Ok, so this begins the actual diet part. I weighed myself and I gained 2 lbs in the last 2 days, but was up 2 already from my 8 lbs loss. I took the drops and had my breakfast...black coffee. I got some tea that should help with the hunger. I am supposed to drink tons of water, no exercise. I am hoping to keep busy and not worry about the food, but I know this will be hard. When I get on the scale tomorrow after a successful day today I will be happy.ReneeReneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-33087213069348965532010-03-07T08:19:00.000-08:002010-03-07T08:27:12.290-08:00HCG Day 2Ok, so yesterday I took the drops as instructed. Had Sausage and eggs for breakfast, coffee, few Cheetos, Chicken nuggets, FF, coke for lunch, few chips, ice cream, steak, potatoes, salad for dinner, and a beer. Not sure if it was enough, but it was fun. Today i am going to have some coffee and probably eggs, sausage and pancakes for breakfast. We are going to a BBQ, so I plan to fill up there today. Went to grocery store and got all the food to eat while I am dieting. I am actually really nervous because this does not have an appetite suppressant, and I am going from eating like crazy to eating nothing. So, I will enjoy my day.....cause it all ends tomorrow! ReneeReneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-32054901700575382972010-03-06T06:41:00.000-08:002010-03-06T06:48:37.011-08:00HCG Day 1OK, so I didn't sleep well last night and I have been up since 5am. Its 6:41 and and I am showered and ready to start!<br />Rules:<br />No gums, no mints, no lotion and moisturizer, this is for day one, other things are a no no along with these for day 3-15.<br />I can use mineral oil for skin. There are fats in cosmetics that are absorbed.<br /><br />The first 2 days you eat fat like crazy, this is to jump start your metabolism. I have weighed myself and I am 16 lbs from my goal.<br /><br />I am going to take my drops in the AM, before lunch and before dinner.<br /><br />This is going to be the fun part....eat anything and everything!!<br />Wish me luck!Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-50869382302196760032010-03-05T07:31:00.000-08:002010-03-05T07:35:05.607-08:00The HCG dietSo, I am going to start the HCG diet tomorrow. Its a controversial diet, its extreme, but if done correctly supposed to work. My plan is this, follow exactly, blog to look back at mistakes, and then when the phases are done return to WW to maintain. I am doing a 15 day cycle, I am hoping for a 10-15lbs loss. The first 2 days you eat like crazy, then you start a 500 calorie a day diet, with a list of foods you can eat, and how to eat them. No fats, oils, butter etc.<br />So tomorrow i will start, lets see how this goes! Renee 10-15lbs to go!!!Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-65954852171910518092010-02-02T05:33:00.001-08:002010-02-02T05:40:46.782-08:00Feeling guiltyAt my son's birthday party I ran around so much and danced that I am sure I offset any bad choices I made. We had a great time. I started a new job and it looks like I will be working everyday through the week. This I am not use to. I get up at the crack of dawn, get lunches ready, outfits, lists for nanny, try to clean a bit. I put my boys on a schedule (thanks Kimmon) that will take 2 weeks for them to get use to. My goal is to get up by 5 am, work out, get ready for work. So that means I need to have all this other stuff done at night. Ok, I am rambling about mommy stuff and not my diet. So I get home yesterday, I already cheated on the diet, they brought donuts to the orientation I was in, I had el pollo loco for lunch, and a peice of V-day candy. I get home, and what is in my face?? Birthday cake!! Yes, I started eating the frosting off it while I was cooking dinner! AAGGHH!! So after we ate I let Jax and Zane destroy it and I threw it away. Goals, again: Drink a lot more water, exercise at least 5 times a week (Yay, my mother in law bought us Wii fit plus) Curb the sweet tooth! Have a good day starving like I am. Renee (12 lbs, give or take)Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-75681005156263937422010-01-30T07:14:00.000-08:002010-01-30T07:20:53.988-08:00Friday, scale dayWell after a week of fighting this diet I lost 1 lbs, which I am thrilled about. I am looking back and seeing my mistakes, and part of me knows if I had stuck to it better I would have lost more, the other part is very happy I lost a lbs and didn't gain 3. My goal is to make 99% of my choices good ones, but leave that tiny buffer for a craving. So, for this week, even though I have said it in the past, drink more water, get more active, and make most of my choices good ones. I am 1 more lbs closer to my goal, and that should keep me motivated. Renee (12 more labs to go)Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-6767796963686287042010-01-27T12:46:00.000-08:002010-01-27T12:52:59.634-08:00January 27. Getting over fear of ball sweatSo, this week I joined the gym. <div>I haven't been a member of a gym in almost 10 years. I have a fear of germs, crowded space (people breathing), and above all ball sweat. Yes, you read that right. Not sure what the phobia is called, but it terrifies me. When I go into the gym and look around at all of the heavily breathing people, my heart begins to pound....then as I look at the equipment, I just imagine ball sweat on everything.</div><div>I dug deep and went for it. 30 minutes of running and then about 45 minutes of strength training. Thats all it took. Im hooked. I felt amazing. Im so sore....a sore that running alone does not give me. Today was day 3 at they gym and Im shooting for 5 days a week.</div><div>Looking forward to weighing in this friday!<br /><div><br /></div></div>Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-53698868433478710532010-01-27T05:49:00.000-08:002010-01-27T05:54:12.539-08:00This sucks!I am struggling, everyday. I am trying to make the right choices, I really am, and most of them are good. Yet i feel bloated and puffy! Why is this so hard. Why do you do so good, then BAM! You think you can get away with murder? I asked my husband to get me a cadbury cream egg last night while he was at the store, what did he bring home?? All the stuff to make Fondue!! Sabotage!! Sabotage!! Then he tells me, just eat one thing!! Are you serious!! Could I get to a point where I say NO to that stuff? Ok, here we go again. Regroup, just because you lose a few pounds its not the golden ticket to Fuck up! Renee, struggling again with hopefully 13 lbs!Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-86221619550634711582010-01-22T08:02:00.000-08:002010-01-22T08:15:41.564-08:00Scale day<span style="font-style: italic;font-size:130%;" ><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">I had a really rough day yesterday. All my decisions weren't perfect, but I tried to drink lots of water, eat some veggies, and make my meals sensible. I feel better today, like I am focused again. Ever since having my second son, about two weeks before my cycle I have a day that I think my life is going to fall apart, yesterday was that day. But today is a new and wonderful day! So what did I lose........drum roll.......3lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wow, I would have been happy with 1, I am ex tactic with 3!!!!! It just goes to show if 99% of your decisions are good, you get active, even if its a little dancing with your kids, you can still have a piece of candy, chocolate chip cookie, or a cocktail at the end of your stressful day and STILL lose weight! So good luck to all you starving mommies....there is a light at the end of this LOOOOONNNNGGGG tunnel!</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">Renee (a not so impossible 13lbs!)</span></span>Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-20149294895954379142010-01-21T13:08:00.000-08:002010-01-21T13:33:48.068-08:00January 21, 2010. Day 2 of "getting it"So yesterday I had an awakening. <div>This is life. </div><div>I can either fight it, continue to waste time looking for the magic pill, the quick fix, cracking a joke or I can get real. I chose to get real. I can NOT keep starving myself all day, and eat a big dinner and cocktails..... and actually expect to change my body. .... even with running.<div>Ive been craving dinner leftovers today. So, rather than fixate on it all day long. I chose to have a small serving for breakfast, and I'll opt for a protein shake for dinner. I dont feel guilty and I will burn it off throughout the day.</div><div>Ive also released my addiction to the scale. Ive vowed to only weigh myself on the first of the month. </div><div>Im no longer saying I have to loose 46 lbs. by June 1st. Theres no end date to this. If it takes until June of 2011...so be it. </div><div>Each day I am committed to make healthy eating habits for myself and healthy cooking habits for my family. </div><div>I was going to get a two year subscription to Savour (foodie magazine). I opted for Runners World instead. </div><div>I tossed out the pack of cigarettes hidden over my stove behind the vases...the pack typically will last me a year.</div><div>Im reorganizing my closet and tossing fat clothes. Gym wear front and center.</div><div>Im committed to speak kindly to myself and find a part of my body that is beautiful everyday (even if its earlobes for the first two weeks).</div><div>My social calendar is going to look different. Instead of meet for martinis, its going to be meet for a run. Instead of taking boys bowling where ill be tempted with beer, Im taking them sledding where I can run hills in the snow..... Being the active mom they love.</div><div>Im doing this for my marriage, my boys, but mostly for myself. Im taking control of my life.</div><div> Little changes will bring big results.</div><div>~Kimmon (46 lbs to go)</div><div><br /></div></div>Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467874222745271511.post-86386303886271507952010-01-21T09:00:00.001-08:002010-01-21T09:05:31.333-08:00HmmmI am not sure what it is, I am struggling this morning!! I am sitting here starving, thinking all kinds of bad thoughts. I had egg over medium and a yogurt, my coffee, usually that holds me over until about 10am. But found myself looking around for something to eat, it it wasn't good choices. I noticed I now am always talking to my subconscious. Debating with myself, coaching myself, trying to make the right choice. Even though I didn't want it, i grabbed a V8. It seems to be helping, and so does writing this. I have lots to do today, so I need to keep busy and make the right choices. I am going to make some green tea and do laundry, and try to keep doing the right thing.<br />Renee (16lbs to go!)Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09281421934973865834noreply@blogger.com0