Whats it going to take?

So the last few weeks I have done nothing right. Nothing fits, my body is puffy and fat, I don't even recognize my face. I don't want my husband to see me naked, and I feel gross all the time. I am searching for motivation and can't seem to find it. I eat when I am not hungry, I don't make the right decisions, I hear my excuse drowning my moms ears and I wonder, whats wrong with me? I got up this morning physically feeling sick, because I made no good choices in the last week of food and no exercise. What I did was hear me tell my mom how bad I feel about a house I am losing in Houston, a possible bankruptcy only that will affect me, a horrible job situations, and I am fat. So, what can I do? Really, at this point the only thing I can do is take care of me! Which would make me stronger to take on all the other issues of life, play with my kids, make crazy love to my husband, and feel success in myself which will in turn help me face life's little challenges in a healthy happy way. I need to stop thinking a few pounds lost will make it all better and realize the pounds will come off when I do better for myself. So that's where I am at today. My goal is to make RENEE feel better, by putting positive into me and in turn expelling positive energy into the world. So here's to feeling better!!